What a year it's been

Well well, it's March 6th 2008. Almost a year since I thought I'd give journaling a try again. LOL. I guess I'll start over, again.

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In the past year, my life has changed a lot. For the better, on all accounts. I've lost 52 pounds, I've started eating better, and I've learned a lot about holistic living. I feel like a new person. I'm heading toward a specific goal right now- I'm going to get pregnant in July, and have another baby next spring, in April. I finally made the decision last year that I really wasn't done having kids and that I really wanted to do it again. My weight loss has been really driven by the desire to have a healthy pregnancy, and not be so overweight while pregnant. I'll definitely get back under 200 lbs. before I get pregnant this summer, the question is just how far below. I'm shooting for 185; anything below that is icing on the cake, so to speak. (a cake made with whole wheat flour and no processed sugar, organic eggs and milk of course!)

I'm thrilled with the idea of being pregnant again... maybe even of morning sicknesss, which makes me think I'm sick in the head! Just knowing that there's another little life growing inside me makes me smile. I'm sure it won't be all so rosy when I'm in the throes of morning sickness (and I get morning sickness the INSTANT I am pregnant and have it for my whole first trimester) but just knowing that it's all happening again will be exciting.

I'm definitely NOT going to find out ahead of time what the sex of the baby is.

I'd like to have this baby at home. My first was born in a hospital by C-section, #2 was vbac at a birthing center. #3 can be born at home. Seems like a nice progression. I've got a whole year to gently work my husband up to that idea!

Since this blog of mine originally started with the idea of keeping track of my dreams, the other night I had the most magnificent baby dream. I hardly ever dreamed about babies when I was pregnant, so this was quite a surprise to me. I was in labor, and the baby was coming. The baby's hand came out first, and I reached down and held it's hand as it came out. My midwife put the baby up onto my chest, and I sat forward and looked at him- yes, him. I dreamed about having a boy. He was the most beautiful little baby boy. His face was so tiny and round, and he had a tufts of brown hair on the top of his head. My dream shifted before I got around to naming him... too bad, I would have liked to see what I came up with for a name.

I talked with my Chiropractor at length about a week ago, and mentioned baby #3- she kept wanting to call it a "she" so she seems to think I'm having a girl. I really think it's going to be a boy. Maybe we'll both be right and I'll have boy/girl twins! I always said I wanted 4 children....