Short term loss, long term gain

I start a part time job on Monday... I'm a little freaked out at the thought of going to work again after being home for over 4 years, but I'm also looking forward to it. I was very sad to have to give up all my night meetings that I go to, all the organizations that I've been involved in over the last few years. I know that in the long run, this will be the best decision. I decided to take this job so that I could pay off my credit cards over this next year before I have another baby. I'll feel so much better not having all that debt weighing over my head.

I didn't win the lottery on Wednesday night, I'm assuming it's because the universe thought I should win MORE money on Saturday night. :) I've been focusing on all the good things I'll do with that money, all the people and organizations that I'm going to help.... I try to hold that thought in my mind.

Here's a list, just off the top of my head, of all the groups I'm going to help:
Town of Mont Vernon- Wah Lum conservation land purchase
Town of Mont Vernon- build a playground
Beaver Brook Transportation Museum
Pine Hill Waldorf School
Association of Waldorf Schools of North America
Waterbirth International
Holistic Moms Network
Keene State College
Holocaust Center at KSC
La Leche League
Cystic Fibrosis, on behalf of Finn

and of course I want to pay for all my nieces and nephews to go to college.
Set up both my parents with houses
Pay off my in law's house
add on the additions to our house- the front porch, the mpr and garage, finish the basement, build a great master suite
do the landscaping I want- make the deck bigger, do the patio & pergola, the upper area for the hammock and the steps, pool and jacuzzi, the fence & arbor
get Jake the Audi he likes
get my XC90
put in central air at our house
build a great shed
get one of those cool playhouses from Poshtots
buy new furniture-
new living room set
new bedroom set for us
new bedroom sets for N&C
LR set for basement room
new dining room set
desk for me for MPR
bookshelves for MPR
dining nook table/chairs for MPR
coat & hat storage for MPR
furniture for front porch

buy a new bike for me
upgrade the lighting in the house- recessed lighting
get the LR painted, hallway painted
get playstand for kids
more Ostheimer figures; nativity ones especially
silk dressup stuff
rocking board

Of course, when I win the lottery on Saturday night, that means I can turn down the job offer, and I can get back to being involved with all my favorite groups again. Yay! That's definitely a cause worth celebrating.

I'll toast to it at dinner tonight.