I start a part time job on Monday... I'm a little freaked out at the thought of going to work again after being home for over 4 years, but I'm also looking forward to it. I was very sad to have to give up all my night meetings that I go to, all the organizations that I've been involved in over the last few years. I know that in the long run, this will be the best decision. I decided to take this job so that I could pay off my credit cards over this next year before I have another baby. I'll feel so much better not having all that debt weighing over my head.
I didn't win the lottery on Wednesday night, I'm assuming it's because the universe thought I should win MORE money on Saturday night. :) I've been focusing on all the good things I'll do with that money, all the people and organizations that I'm going to help.... I try to hold that thought in my mind.
Here's a list, just off the top of my head, of all the groups I'm going to help:
Town of Mont Vernon- Wah Lum conservation land purchase
Town of Mont Vernon- build a playground
Beaver Brook Transportation Museum
Pine Hill Waldorf School
Association of Waldorf Schools of North America
Waterbirth International
Holistic Moms Network
Keene State College
Holocaust Center at KSC
La Leche League
Cystic Fibrosis, on behalf of Finn
and of course I want to pay for all my nieces and nephews to go to college.
Set up both my parents with houses
Pay off my in law's house
add on the additions to our house- the front porch, the mpr and garage, finish the basement, build a great master suite
do the landscaping I want- make the deck bigger, do the patio & pergola, the upper area for the hammock and the steps, pool and jacuzzi, the fence & arbor
get Jake the Audi he likes
get my XC90
put in central air at our house
build a great shed
get one of those cool playhouses from Poshtots
buy new furniture-
new living room set
new bedroom set for us
new bedroom sets for N&C
LR set for basement room
new dining room set
desk for me for MPR
bookshelves for MPR
dining nook table/chairs for MPR
coat & hat storage for MPR
furniture for front porch
buy a new bike for me
upgrade the lighting in the house- recessed lighting
get the LR painted, hallway painted
get playstand for kids
more Ostheimer figures; nativity ones especially
silk dressup stuff
rocking board
Of course, when I win the lottery on Saturday night, that means I can turn down the job offer, and I can get back to being involved with all my favorite groups again. Yay! That's definitely a cause worth celebrating.
I'll toast to it at dinner tonight.
Friday, March 14, 2008
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Baby Baby
I had another baby dream last night. I was at some sort of a meeting, and someone gave me a baby in a sling and asked me to bring it home. They didn't give me any food for this young baby (maybe 3 or 4 mo. old) and I was anxious about how to feed it. I decided that I would try nursing the baby, so when I got home, I did. It went fine. The baby was wearing a yellow pajama outfit, so no clues as to whether it was supposed to be a boy or a girl.
This makes at least the third baby dream I've had in the last few months. I think maybe I'm starting to connect with my subconsciousness more than I ever had before.
This week I decided to go back and check out babycenter again- I haven't been to check out my birth boards there in ages! Some of the same people are still posting, even on N's board after all these years. It's pretty amazing. I've now joined the birth board for when I hope to have the new baby next year. Kind of crazy that there are even women there already, posting about hoping to get pregnant later this year! I'm not hoping to get pregnant though; I know I am going to be pregnant. I am having a baby next year, no doubt about it. :)
Time to go and look at my winning lottery ticket numbers!
This makes at least the third baby dream I've had in the last few months. I think maybe I'm starting to connect with my subconsciousness more than I ever had before.
This week I decided to go back and check out babycenter again- I haven't been to check out my birth boards there in ages! Some of the same people are still posting, even on N's board after all these years. It's pretty amazing. I've now joined the birth board for when I hope to have the new baby next year. Kind of crazy that there are even women there already, posting about hoping to get pregnant later this year! I'm not hoping to get pregnant though; I know I am going to be pregnant. I am having a baby next year, no doubt about it. :)
Time to go and look at my winning lottery ticket numbers!
Thursday, March 6, 2008
What a year it's been
Well well, it's March 6th 2008. Almost a year since I thought I'd give journaling a try again. LOL. I guess I'll start over, again.
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In the past year, my life has changed a lot. For the better, on all accounts. I've lost 52 pounds, I've started eating better, and I've learned a lot about holistic living. I feel like a new person. I'm heading toward a specific goal right now- I'm going to get pregnant in July, and have another baby next spring, in April. I finally made the decision last year that I really wasn't done having kids and that I really wanted to do it again. My weight loss has been really driven by the desire to have a healthy pregnancy, and not be so overweight while pregnant. I'll definitely get back under 200 lbs. before I get pregnant this summer, the question is just how far below. I'm shooting for 185; anything below that is icing on the cake, so to speak. (a cake made with whole wheat flour and no processed sugar, organic eggs and milk of course!)
I'm thrilled with the idea of being pregnant again... maybe even of morning sicknesss, which makes me think I'm sick in the head! Just knowing that there's another little life growing inside me makes me smile. I'm sure it won't be all so rosy when I'm in the throes of morning sickness (and I get morning sickness the INSTANT I am pregnant and have it for my whole first trimester) but just knowing that it's all happening again will be exciting.
I'm definitely NOT going to find out ahead of time what the sex of the baby is.
I'd like to have this baby at home. My first was born in a hospital by C-section, #2 was vbac at a birthing center. #3 can be born at home. Seems like a nice progression. I've got a whole year to gently work my husband up to that idea!
Since this blog of mine originally started with the idea of keeping track of my dreams, the other night I had the most magnificent baby dream. I hardly ever dreamed about babies when I was pregnant, so this was quite a surprise to me. I was in labor, and the baby was coming. The baby's hand came out first, and I reached down and held it's hand as it came out. My midwife put the baby up onto my chest, and I sat forward and looked at him- yes, him. I dreamed about having a boy. He was the most beautiful little baby boy. His face was so tiny and round, and he had a tufts of brown hair on the top of his head. My dream shifted before I got around to naming him... too bad, I would have liked to see what I came up with for a name.
I talked with my Chiropractor at length about a week ago, and mentioned baby #3- she kept wanting to call it a "she" so she seems to think I'm having a girl. I really think it's going to be a boy. Maybe we'll both be right and I'll have boy/girl twins! I always said I wanted 4 children....
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In the past year, my life has changed a lot. For the better, on all accounts. I've lost 52 pounds, I've started eating better, and I've learned a lot about holistic living. I feel like a new person. I'm heading toward a specific goal right now- I'm going to get pregnant in July, and have another baby next spring, in April. I finally made the decision last year that I really wasn't done having kids and that I really wanted to do it again. My weight loss has been really driven by the desire to have a healthy pregnancy, and not be so overweight while pregnant. I'll definitely get back under 200 lbs. before I get pregnant this summer, the question is just how far below. I'm shooting for 185; anything below that is icing on the cake, so to speak. (a cake made with whole wheat flour and no processed sugar, organic eggs and milk of course!)
I'm thrilled with the idea of being pregnant again... maybe even of morning sicknesss, which makes me think I'm sick in the head! Just knowing that there's another little life growing inside me makes me smile. I'm sure it won't be all so rosy when I'm in the throes of morning sickness (and I get morning sickness the INSTANT I am pregnant and have it for my whole first trimester) but just knowing that it's all happening again will be exciting.
I'm definitely NOT going to find out ahead of time what the sex of the baby is.
I'd like to have this baby at home. My first was born in a hospital by C-section, #2 was vbac at a birthing center. #3 can be born at home. Seems like a nice progression. I've got a whole year to gently work my husband up to that idea!
Since this blog of mine originally started with the idea of keeping track of my dreams, the other night I had the most magnificent baby dream. I hardly ever dreamed about babies when I was pregnant, so this was quite a surprise to me. I was in labor, and the baby was coming. The baby's hand came out first, and I reached down and held it's hand as it came out. My midwife put the baby up onto my chest, and I sat forward and looked at him- yes, him. I dreamed about having a boy. He was the most beautiful little baby boy. His face was so tiny and round, and he had a tufts of brown hair on the top of his head. My dream shifted before I got around to naming him... too bad, I would have liked to see what I came up with for a name.
I talked with my Chiropractor at length about a week ago, and mentioned baby #3- she kept wanting to call it a "she" so she seems to think I'm having a girl. I really think it's going to be a boy. Maybe we'll both be right and I'll have boy/girl twins! I always said I wanted 4 children....
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