Yes or No?

Last night, I dreamed that a man proposed to me by writing in the sand at the beach... and in the dream I wasn't sure if I should say yes or not. It was a strange dream. Not even remotely close to how I was really proposed to. I think I really wanted to say yes, but there was something pulling me back (maybe my rational mind remembering that I'm already married??) In my dream, there were relatives of this man there, and they all were hoping I would say yes. It was a generic "man" but I know his name was Paul. It wasn't someone specific that I know though- I don't even think I know anyone IRL whose name is Paul.

I went out to dinner with 3 friends tonight, and one way or another when we go out they always end up talking about sex. One mentioned that she wished she'd slept with more people in High School. I think she said it rather flippantly, but I think she was halfway serious too. She said she's never had a one night stand, and wished she'd done it once. (She's married now). I kept my mouth shut. I don't often contribute when the sex conversations come up, unless I'm specifically put on the spot for an answer. I just find it awkward. Maybe I'm a bit prudish?

Back to the high school sex thing- I was completely in love with one boy when I was in high school, and he never knew it. Talk about unrequited love.... I suppose if things had been different between he and I, I would have had sex with him. That's just weird to think about, considering we never even kissed! We were good friends, but only friends. Things were complicated back then. I often wonder if I'd been braver, more assertive, would a relationship between the two of us ever had a chance? Well, that chapter of my life is over now, no going back to find out.

Sweet dreams. Maybe I'll find out tonight if I said yes to Paul or not, lol.