A New Man Every Night!

LOL. Last night I was dreaming about a man named Robert. He didn't ask me to marry him like Paul did, but we were apparently dating or something. Again, can't say I know anyone IRL whose name is Robert. I find it amusing that I have all these dreams about men I don't know. Honestly, I don't often have dreams with my husband in them. And if he is in them, he's usually always with one or both of our children. Maybe my subconscious is just "letting go" in my dreams, and doing all the things I'd never, ever do for real!

I had my parenting workshop today, it was fabulous. I learned about the Law of Attraction. I can really see how applying this to my daily life will make a huge difference in my parenting. Yay! I'm so thrilled to feel like I have something that will help me be a better mother.

It's snowing outside tonight-- just a light, spring snow. It's beautiful, and I love it because you know it's not going to last. The temperatures are slowly creeping up, day by day, and before we know it, it will be hot and sticky all the time again. I'm looking forward to going to the beach. I love being at the shore.

Yes or No?

Last night, I dreamed that a man proposed to me by writing in the sand at the beach... and in the dream I wasn't sure if I should say yes or not. It was a strange dream. Not even remotely close to how I was really proposed to. I think I really wanted to say yes, but there was something pulling me back (maybe my rational mind remembering that I'm already married??) In my dream, there were relatives of this man there, and they all were hoping I would say yes. It was a generic "man" but I know his name was Paul. It wasn't someone specific that I know though- I don't even think I know anyone IRL whose name is Paul.

I went out to dinner with 3 friends tonight, and one way or another when we go out they always end up talking about sex. One mentioned that she wished she'd slept with more people in High School. I think she said it rather flippantly, but I think she was halfway serious too. She said she's never had a one night stand, and wished she'd done it once. (She's married now). I kept my mouth shut. I don't often contribute when the sex conversations come up, unless I'm specifically put on the spot for an answer. I just find it awkward. Maybe I'm a bit prudish?

Back to the high school sex thing- I was completely in love with one boy when I was in high school, and he never knew it. Talk about unrequited love.... I suppose if things had been different between he and I, I would have had sex with him. That's just weird to think about, considering we never even kissed! We were good friends, but only friends. Things were complicated back then. I often wonder if I'd been braver, more assertive, would a relationship between the two of us ever had a chance? Well, that chapter of my life is over now, no going back to find out.

Sweet dreams. Maybe I'll find out tonight if I said yes to Paul or not, lol.

The Ebay High

Yay! I just found something cool on Ebay, and won the auction! I got that Ebay high, when I find something I really wanted and get a good deal on it. The secret to winning an auction is to wait until there are only a few minutes left and then make your first bid. I've won several auctions that way. My husband calls it sniping. It worked for me tonight!

I'm going to an all day parenting workshop on Saturday. I'm hoping I can take some good techniques and ideas away from it.

I've been having crazy dreams lately. Fragments and pieces, mostly because my sleep is so often interrupted. I've been dreaming often of friends from high school and colllege. The kind of dreams where you start to wake up a little bit, and wish you could pick up where you left off- good, happy, fun dreams.

What would it be like to go back in time, and have the chance to relive the past? Maybe I'll dream about that tonight.

First Dream...

I haven't kept a journal, on line or otherwise, in almost 7 years. I used to enjoy it, I can't really say why I got away from it. Maybe it was journaling burnout. I decided I'd give it another try, and why not go online right? So here I am.

I got a new/old CD today- a copy of Beauty and the Beast of Love and Hope. It's the soundtrack to the old tv series, not the Disney Movie. I had a cassette copy when I was in high school; still have the cassette around the house somewhere actually. I listened to it so often I wore it out. I was thrilled when it was re-released on CD. It's the most beautiful CD I've ever owned. I'm heading to bed to listen to it now. Sweet dreams to myself. "Come to me in my dreams and then, by day I shall be well again; for so the night will more than pay, the hopeless longing of the day"- Matthew Arnold. -sigh-